[ truly, madly, deeply ]fuck
its all fine in the day
really
im totally alright and everything
totally
normal.
then at night
you come back
to haunt me.what can you do
when words are just not enough
but are
all you havethis is the 3rd night in a row
im sitting alone
in the darkness
feeling more solitary
than the last star at dawn
i will not cry
i tell myself
wiping away hot tears
clenching my jaw to prevent
the rest from flowing
but they do anyway
damn
every night is torture
images of you
shy smiles
wild laughter
tender touches
snatches of moments of
a time that ended all to soon
wish i could be suspended in it
lost in it
i'm lost.then a sound
i am jolted
and i realise
all too soon again
that
all i can hold
are memories.
intangible** just 3 small words. but with such a wealth of meaning behind them that they scare me**1:27 am;can you keep a secret?