i wrote this in geography lesson on.. was it monday ? i dunno. but well here it is. Its thursday, the correct day to write all this coz The O.C is aired today.
i love to watch "the O.C", "One Tree Hill", GIlmore Girls". i duno why. some have labelled me as an anglophile.Well if liking American shows and relating more to their way of thought and way of life/cultures ? akes me an Anglophile then so be it. whats your definition of anglophile? you tell me.i just prefer the word liberal. :)
But "The O.C?" i dunno. i wish i cld watch it without anyone else around. its like my personal retreat. Its a little sad that i look forward to watching the imaginary lives of imaginary people in an imaginary town in a country thousands of miles away. But it seems like thats my own little escape from ym own life. One hour, once a week. i guess thats the point of these shows isn't it? To watch an imaginary person somehwere in an imainary situation and know that this is not just a show. someone, somwhere is living this. someone, somewhere has it worse than you do.
bumped into him yesterday at the performance [the dance]. we all went out after that. he looks better everyday. i can't believe i've known him since i was six. And liked him from the time i was.. well young.. he was being his usual gross / GUY self and talking about ice cream and how as a kid he used to put it on his hand and lick it off. *grimace* all i could think were very graphic thoughts.
staring straight into his eyes , i kept thinking about how it would be like to kiss the ice cream off his mouth.and how it would be to trail it along his jaw and slowly kiss it off. he'd be shocked to hear this. might even faint. He does not even think of me as a girl. its my fault thought too. i always corrected him if he even so much as called me a girly.
but after all that, just so you know, i actually stopped liking him a long time ago. in sec...2 ? its just like i said. i'm in a romantic mood.i'm probably channelling out all frustration on the nearest available guy. my eyes are glued to him likea manet if he's nearby. All i can do is stare. coz i would never tell him of course. and risk another tym episode ? i dont think so.
his girlfreind is gone though. Back to the US. i wonder if she existed. she probably did. why would he lie?
sigh its this crazy july weather. all soft rain and slow permeating heat that just seeps into your soul and makes you feel dreamy, wispy and.. Oh somebody stop me.
kayjal
9:22 pm;can you keep a secret?
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