yay. i am so happy i can just feel the grin sliding off my face. im now 17. its 12:07 am. i have now been 17 for 7 minutes. in 3 years i'll be 20 then i'll be 40 then 60 then 80 then i'll die. wat a life. meri bhi. sorry...PJ.i am depressed. wat a great way to usher in 2004. i dunnoe wat to do to get me out of this dead funk i'm in. should i go to MJ tomorrow/ today or not ? maybe seeing my friends will cheer me up. it did 2 yrs ago. or maybe realising what i'm missing wil make me even MORE depressed. oh fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck. after saying that word alot it becomes like meaningless. not the most vulgar word in the dictionary anymore. just a normal swear word like shit. saadnah went on wednesday. did i tell you that ?
everyone is gone , everyone has a life, everyone has something to do. didi is in USA, saadnah is in UK , sindhu is well...here but she's working. shes busy...everyone else has school or work or well.. stuff. and i am ....here. all by myself. i feel like popping open a can of beer and drinking myself into oblivion..
happy birthday to me
happy birthday to me
happy birthday happy birthday..........
CRAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME.
*claps..cheers and wolf whistles *
i cant seem to do more than sigh. and cry. cant smile..cant frown cant even scowl. just sit here and wallow in my own misery that is my life.
maybe i
will
go and drink that chilled beer in the fridge.. or maybe drink coke. hell coke tastes better.
12:15 am;can you keep a secret?