i dunnoe whether to laugh till i cry or just cry. A HAPPY FISH ? I am a HAPPY fish ? i have forgotten how to be pessimistic ? she who always imagines the worst case scenario and wishes for people to fall down and die and for everything to rot slowly till there is nothing left but an empty decaying shell....and finally the world's outer appearance matches its black innards ? so that the outer self of the world and its people can match their inner selves? wow. im happy. YIPPPEEEEEEEEEEEE.